October 27th, 2009


We don't always get what we ask for.

Am currently in school, so this shall be a short post.

Life has been mundane lately, I don't know if I should be happy or not. But I guess I'm kind of glad that I'm not caught up in any drama in my life thus far.

After reading both of their blogs, I couldn't help but wonder as well, who are my friends?


If you've seen me in school, you might've known me as a very versatile person. One who can 'click and blend' into most groups of people.

(At this point, Valerie says Hi XD)


Okay so continuing on.
Being able to be with so many people, it might actually feel like I have tons of friends. But as I look at them once more, I don't know how many of them can I actually count on to tell them my problems. I guess, being among many people just distracts me away from the fact of how lonely I actually feel. That, I don't know who to count as my 'friend'.

Sometimes when I'm in a huge group of people, everybody actually ignores me and I think I could even walk away without any of them knowing. That's how transparent I feel. More like, invisible, I guess.

Friends that I once used to have, they've all drifted away. They've got new friends, while I'm still here, believing that we would be friends forever. How naive I truly am.

Who amongst all these people, can see behind the smiles and laughter I put on everyday?
Who amongst all these people, can come straight up to me and express how I feel?
Who amongst all these people, would sit by me in my times of despair?
Who amongst all these people, would even ask me if I'm okay?

Only God.
Only He sees through my broken soul.
Only He sees through my smiles.
Only He sees through my laughters.
Only He sees through the barrier that I'm putting up.

And that's all I have.
And that's all that will matter.

Because Jesus is my savior.
And I believe in Him.
And I'm thankful for Him.


Okay I need to shut down the computer now. That will be all for now.
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